I haven't been feeling quite right for some time now. Not in the sense that I'm coming down with something, more just an overall sense of the blahs. My weight isn't where I want it to be. My energy is lagging. I'm tired. I just don't feel right in my own skin and it's not like me.
This could describe half of us probably, but I'm not willing to believe that this a natural part of aging. It's NOT. And I know many, many women older than myself who are in fantastic shape, running marathons and taking cross-country bicycle treks, and I just know that it won't take long on a regimen for me to regain a sense of well-being.
Since I'm the introspective type, a diary for this journey was in order. I wanted something with inspirational imagery and space to monitor progress. It's not a place for harsh criticism, only brief statements on what I'm thinking, doing, and how I'm feeling along the way.
The 5x8 (thrifted) binder is covered in book cloth from Hollanders. Consider it practice for projects to come. And that it was, because this is definitely not my neatest quality work. Irksome, but lessons learned and I'll live with it. I drilled a couple holes in the center back cover to feed the ribbon through, which is generally used as a bookmark and can be tied to secure the binder for travel.
A transparency on the front page is a bold reminder of the real focus here. In the past I've had a tendency to obsess about weight control, and if I were to be completely honest I would love to return to my control mindset just for the benefit of being slim. I need a visual reminder that this needs to be about overall self awareness.
This is a six-month diary with tabbed pages covered in patterned papers.
The back side of each tabbed page has photos chosen to reflect self-care/self-kindness rather than more obviously fitness oriented, though action/activity is a big piece of the picture for me.
All of those gorgeous photos are from the Toast Home [Autumn/Winter 08] catalog. Behind the formatted grid pages are several sheets of general ruled paper for longer entries.
If anyone is interested in making a similar binder I would be happy to share a file of the title sheet and journal grid page. They are 5.5 x 8.5 in size. Just let me know in the comments. PDF printables are posted here.
Item number one from my fall project list accomplished; now the plan begins. I wish you well.