I've been grumping around here all week. Not that any of you would know, because I'm not the kind to make my grievances public. And who would empathize, what with the picture of serenity that I paint?
Ask my family though, and they'll confirm that parts of our house have been getting mighty sparkly, as I do some of my best cleaning in fits of irritability. This morning Paul came down to find me (still in what I wear for pajamas -- yoga pants and a tee) scouring the kitchen floor on my knees. His "Mol, do you know where the camera is? heh, heh ... " wasn't met with much humor.
I Know I said just a few months ago that I was happy with our home just the way it is, but it's not always easy to keep that in perspective. And I know you can't tell the condition of our home accurately from my slight-of-hand photo-cropping. Not that it should matter in particular.
Understandably then, the mood around here has been at an elevated, or even orange alert, as I scrub and sort and manipulate those things within my control.
To be clear, I do not blame. But that doesn't mean there's no sting from my tone, and that -- to be completely forthcoming -- one isn't at least partially intended.
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All I want is a proper cup o' coffee made in a proper copper coffee pot.
I may be off my dot, but I want a proper coffee in a proper copper pot.
Iron coffee pots and tin coffee pots they are no use to me.
If I can't have a proper cup o' coffee in a proper copper coffee pot,
I'll have a cup of tea.
From who knows where the song popped into my head as I helped the girls shower the other night. I sang aloud as I've been known to do, and they tilted their heads sideways like puppies, and laughed having never heard that tune before. At least they didn't remember.
We used to listen to more music in the little house. I thought the children's CDs long gone off with the donations. It's been four years since I heard that song. Recent history, but half a lifespan for them.
Anyway, it's just plain impossible to be surly when singing Trout Fishing in America. I dare you to try.
Would you believe that the very next day (while tracking down my tart pan) I found that pile of kid's CDs? Doesn't everyone pack dishes with music?
Had I spoken it (or sung it) into being?
By singing those words had I influenced my mind-set and, consequently, the results?
Sounds far-fetched, but it was a great musical reminder of the power of words.
Our words stem from our thoughts, but it also works the other way around. Speaking the right words will help form new thoughts, open possibilities, and drive our actions in better directions.
I know this to be true. I've always known it.
During times of frustration, I need to remember to not let those thoughts manifest themselves into words. Negative words will only bring more of the same.
This week I'm choosing constructive words: work, rejoice, be glad.
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